Trust

Trust is always an issue
I used to trust people easily and I was told naive
because the world is full of bad people
with different motive

I was involved in an accident a day ago
I bang into an Indian guy's car.
It wasn't suppose to happen, I thought I am cautious enough
I looked back before I reversed the car and I dont remember I saw the car.
Perhaps the big car on my left blocked my vision.
But there weren't suppose to be any cars there. It wasn't even a parking spot.
The Indian guy stared at me and I apologised for my mistake.
He looked at the BMW and started to observe. I saw a little small dent on it. Really was just a small unoticable one.
He wasn't as friendly and I know he wouldn't let me go.
As expected, he took my IC and the photo of the car.
He told me he needs to check for the damage and I need to pay for his loss.
I told him my insurance should have covered it.

He sent me a msg the next day telling me it should have cost him RM1500 but he decided to go for cheaper one RM800. He wants me to pay the cost of it and threatened me to go for police. I was like why not,
He called me again and I negotiated so we made it down to RM 400  but still I dont find that small dent cost me that much and he was at fault for parking illegally too.

My dad said it only cost up to RM 300 max so I told him and he rejected my offer and said that he is a lawyer. I really hate his attitude. So I decided to let the police settled it and immediately he called me and said it is fine.

I knew it. He is such a leech. He knows well that he wont get back any insurance fr the small dent and he might need to pay extra fr the accident as well for his illegal parking but he is trying to use his power to scare me off.

Moral learnt, stand for your right, and never let people scare you off!

Loneliness is the feeling that can never fade away

Loneliness grow more intense when you used to have someone close

who you can find and talk to

Then, when the perfect relationship broke

you will face a period of emptiness

You keep finding ways to fill the emptiness

You feel something missing in your life

Keep searching for the missing puzzle

The fact is that you forget you once live happily without that special one

Why now?

Mind over body

Longing for something makes you forget how to live at the moment

Leave those behind

Never too late to realise

You have friends...

GOT-Games of Throw- Second Frisbee tournament

PIt was such a "morning" to start off with
I overslept and almost didn't make it for the tournament.
I set the alarm but it was pm instead of am...typical me...
My friend called me for 50 times (again) but too bad I put my phone in silent. It was really no way to contact me.
Furthermore, I am staying in second floor so I couldnt really hear people calling from downstair.
All of sudden, I think I heard loud scream of my name and I jumped up from the bed. Gosh, It was 5.28 and in 2 min times, the van is gonna departed.
I made it finally, couldnt imagine how regret I would be if I didn't make it.Thanks to these bunches of friends who never give me up =P
The Game didn't go as good as we expected. We are playing a bit out of normal standard.
There are some of us feel really "Am Gog" coz we felt we can do better than this.
We lost the first 3 games and for the last one, I guess we really just want to do it for fun.
Breaking 0 seemed to be our target now. It sounds a bit pathetic by the way.
In the van, all of us were very tired, fallen asleep once all get on. Qan and I was sitting back, talking almost throughout the journey. It was really a nice chat on the future perspect.
It was definitely not a victory to mention, bt I suppose all of us still appreciate the game as a team.

Penang King of North Frisbee tournament

It is indeed something we all looking forward, the first frisbee tournament once we back to Penang.

We had a bit of training once we came back from Dublin, quite a number of times before New Year and a few times after.

We had friendly game with uitm team as well.

We didn't really put much expectation on it.

As people always say, no expectation is always the best.

Sometimes I wonder, do we really suppose to thrieve hard for something? Or fate will tell us?

The first day was an early match. It was against team called Rojak, seeding no 5.  

We were badly beaten by the team.

They are fast and skillful. We were a newly formed team and there aren't much chemistry between us.

The continuous 2matches weren't really good but we picked up some skills.

The last one was with our uitm team again. This time things work better for us too. We all said it was one of the great.

We ended the night with a party in Wilson's house.

The second day, we all still putting up hope to get at least medal for " second bracket" 

We used the same line as yesterday.

As games go, chaos happened. Lot of people getting pissed off, being scolded for not knowing how frisbee games go. 

Kelvin was a bit lost control, asking us to take our shoes back home coz to Bryan, only his line know who to play frisbee,

we have a feeling of being treating like trash. Have to admit, the feeling is bad. 

However, we all admitted. Perhaps, we are not as skillful, but we all here to learn. No one is really better than anyone.

But if there is no trust in your teammates, we all played with no confidence. Sometimes, life maybe more about winning and losing. Grey line doesn't really exist. 

People create it in their own mind.

This is not the worst😉 We proof to those look down on us but we cheer for happy people... Never give up...

King of North... Game is not just a game.. We learn life lesson too...

Learning clinical skills in progress...Suturing, nebuliser, inhaler use and ear syringing

Today is my first clinical skill session.

We learnt a bit on how to use nebuliser, inhaler, ear syringe as well as simple interrupted suture technique.

Dr HLC demo to us how to do the ear syringe. My mind started to reflect back to my experience when I was a kid. I got partially deaf and I thought that was the end of it. I was too dumb to realise that it was due to extra earwax blockage.

We also learn to assemble the nebuliser and inhaler. We were taught of skills to sterilise everything as well as way to explain to patients on their disease.

The last part was actually the best part.

 We were taught to do suturing and I remember I always want to do that. Maybe I watched too much drama especially the recent korean drama on " blood"

With the forcep and the needle holder, we " struggled" to come out with the best product with less damage to the skin...😂lol

Well, Dr Khoo made a few sampling on suture. It was really nice and his secret is " practise make perfect" lol

Hre is the product of my suturing

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How I spent my Valentine

Another morning waking up, realising I am the only one in the house, kind of empty. The kind of feeling that you are in a big big house, alone... Just you and your WIFI!

My housemates choose to staye in her house in Penang as it is nearer to Hospital Seberang Jaya!
Basically, I spent my morning watching some drama.
Ben came back around 12pm and she came my house. Again, she forget to bring her iron.
We chatted for an hour, talking about the salary as a future doctor is gonna be around the same as teacher.. Around RM 2000++. She seemed annoyed thinking of how hard she studied as medicine student yet she feel like she doesn't get what she deserved.
Around 4.30pm, we had frisbee, is a friendly tournament with students from UiTM.

There is a guy called" goat" ( because of his beard) . He is super runner... Always appear out of nowhere! As fast as lightning!

We got 4:1 in the end.
We were quite lucky as we win the game.( mayb because we all wore red😜coz is valentine)

Everyone was exhausted. Imagine you are running around the field! Non stop!
We went to Xing Lai Lai  foodcourt fr dinner together.
I skyped with Yu Xuan after, I felt bad as I was to tired and I kind of giving soso response only.

Before I slept, I sat on the bed for a while, as usual, thinking about today. Today is a special day for many people. 

I don't deny it.

Maybe not for me, yet and ever.. I dont know. I believe everyone who are single like me do feel a bit weird especially when you start scrolling fb and realise what everyone posted is about how appreciate they are to have another half.

I do, hope for true love to come a day. I do craving for it. 

But I dont obssessed about it.

What should come will come a day.

The best thing to do now is to equip yourself while you still have ability to do so.

I always remind myself, life is short and no second chance. Love yourself more because no one can do this better than you do.

Valentine with aweosme frisbee team

Skypinh with my Singaporean friend,She miss me that much... Measurable😂

last day of new year

I was waken up by my dad, ready to leave. I was so scared .  I told my dad I knocked the car and it was pretty badly damaged. 

I was waiting for him to scold me but he didnt. He helped me to fix it immediately instead, with the electronic screwdriver. 

I felt so touched and more guilty as well. 

I know I should be more careful.
I hugged my mum goodbye,asking her to take good care of herself. I am gonna miss her do badly.

 In the car,my dad talked quite much, making sure that I hav everything I need as usual, telling how to keep the car in good condition and how important it is to drive safely. I realise how irresponsible am i in many way (shame)
In the car, the song "好久不见" -long time no see was playing in the radio and my  mind go astray. I think of my friend, a very special friend of mine. I haven't meet him for a long time. 
There are quite lot of hidden police and we need to keep alert all times. My dad told me the police can saman us up to RM300 so he was very alert on this.
I went back to my own thought again. "How nice to b young to make a lot of mistakes, but those mistakes can never be made when you get a bit older."
My dad brought me out for lunch after we put our luggage. I went back to my room, I miss home, damn badly.=(((

*P.S.- thought of the day-when i started to grow, only did i realise tht my dad plays a big part in my life😢he forgives all my wrongdoing, he doesnt blame me for my mistake bt he makes sure tht i learn frm it.. Always

I love him more than anyone, I never mentioned that to him.

But as far as i know, family is always your shelter. After years living in Ireland, i thought i never miss home.

But this time, when I get close to my family again, leaving makes me feel hard...

Tears rolled with this thought... And I wiped it off before he didrealize

My badly damaged car😅

 

Chinese New Year Chu5

The whole day is basically full of activities, a lot of gathering and meet-up with my relative and siblings as the past few days I spent most of my time with my family ( I really do have good time)😊and I am leaving to Penang from Seremban tomorrow.
I woke up at 7am as usual, got my new day started. A bit lazyas usual.
We went out for breakfast and my secondary school friends dropped by and paid a visit, Ru yi, Lian, carmen and her brother, ekey. 
Both of them are gonna be future teachers and one as business woman and another as chinese traditional medicine doctor.

She helped me to take pulse, is really interesting to know that different pulse indicate something, high blood pressure can be known by just taking pulse as well! ( so what is the point of having sphygmometer ?)

About 12pm, they left and continued their "New Year Tuan Bai"- visit house from house.
I went out for lunch with my senior from Seremban. He just came back from Queensland. 

We had a great chat. All of sudden, he mentioned a small diary I have wrote him long ago,4 years ago before he left. It is a small diary of the memories we had. He is like a big brother to me=) now and always.

Apparently he remembered lot of things. And as always I tried to assume I don't coz I find it aweward😂
CC from Port Dickson arrived at 1pm, we had great talk and updated a lot of things in life. We both feel sad for the goverment at the moment. We hope for better as we couldn't do much about it.
We talked for quite long till 5pm.
Then I went to Jac house and get to meet up with a few buddies and went to my aunt house straight for dinner.

I met up with my cousin. They intro me the Japan brand kewpie mayo for salad. I fall in love with it!
After dinner I went to my friends' house for second round. They played marfia/wolf games and apparently I am a bit bored.
I really do regret i didnt pay full attention while driving a car, I knocked the sth like the tree log bu the roadside and my car was apparently quite badly damaged. I felt so bad and so sorry... =(

Secondary school friends

My seniors

Badly damaged car

My favourite Kewpie mayo!!!

Teeth extracted day

PI got my teeth extracted today.

The doctor is being very nice to me.

He kept asking if I regretted doing this bit I wont.

I supposed it won't really as pain as scaling though ( to be frank)

Night of rumor... My friend told me my housemate complaint to people that I am not being punctual in the morning to class( we carpool) and she doesnt like waiting but as long as I remember I never been late...

I choose to believe... As long as you do no mistake... Never let things that is not true to affect you. Have faith... I do...

Extracted teeth

Forth day of orientation, street walk

This morning I woke up with satisfaction, 10 hours sleep.
Basically, we learnt about communication skill. The course content mainly told us how to use non verbal communication technique, how importance of listening , how to be empathy.
It is a very relaxing day indeed.
We had quite number of break. Dr Jean is an interesting lady, she loves to use her family as example whenever she needs to. I guess she loves her family a lot. The afternoon session is more of teamwork.
We need to play role of doctor and patient, taking history of the patient.
We volunteer to present the chest pain case as it is one of the most everyone is familiar with. So, I volunteer to be a patient as I supposed it is more fun to be a doctor¬¬haha. Jeff played the role as the doctor.
We then have 3 hours long break so after we had our lunch. Gab, Jeff and I went fr snooker. It was fun and I seldom play it though. When I was trying to change the posture and sit on the table with the stick behind me. I couldn't even target¬LOL
we get ourselves all sweaty just by playing that though.
Then, we had our history taking session at 2pm and it actually just last for an hour plus. I guess we get it done real quick.
Then, I went back home and tried another coffee art pattern since the last one was so failed. I couldnt even form the bubble. Only did i know that creamy is so importance for milk to be frothed.
Then, we went for another frisbee session at 530pm. It was more fun as more people joining this time.
I really do enjoy the feeling of running on the field. And i always feel so good after it ends. I guess the frisbee doesn't matter to me anymore in the end. Haha¬ lol
After the frisbee session ended, we all kind of smelly but we still into the car and get to lighthouse to prepare food for the homelss. We see quite alot, the red light area. I never realise there are so many homeless in Penang. You really do feel heart aches seeing them. We spent quite some time to prepare the chicken sandwich. It was real fun to do meaningful things all together.
It ended quite late like 1230pm. All of us are pretty exhausted but still looking forward for white coat ceremony the day after.

The awesome frisbee team!!!!!

Exploring Penang-Lok lok, house visit

Same as the day before,the moment i open my eyes, the sun strikes into my eyes... I hardly woke up,around 0900am as I stayed over to make "tao sha biar"

I start to appreciate the sun here, warmy😊

I really do.

Thaipusam is really a big festival in Penang. I don't even feel like going out. The road block terrified me. I remember the first day My family and I tried to get to bendera hill. We tried many ways but most roads are blocked.

We ended up going to Batu ferringhi😂

I dont recall how I spent my morning, probably slept and woke again until Ben called me for lunch.

We explored around the hawker place. Most of it closed by this hour. We managed to find one near pulau tikus. 

I ordered my " 鱼肉饭” 

Then, i mentioned that I only have 2 formal shirts to be wear alternately and Ben said i should have bought more so we went to Gurney plaza again!!! Gosh, 3 times in a row. And the fact that I only been here for 3 days!

We found some cheap japanese buffets restaurant-rm12 per person with baskin robbin, probably gonna try it and some vegetarian restaurant... 😂haha, probably my kind of thing.

We went to parago and took back entrance to the plaza.

Most stuffs are quite expensive. I bought myself a belt for my white coat ceremony and when I was to pay, they cannot find the price tag and kinda made a big chaos out of it, asking did i get it somewhere else? I am a bit frustrated at the point though.

Well, i didnt get what i supposed to get though.

Back home, i immediately get Gabrielle's call asking to join them for dinner and the place is Pulau tikus- 5 mins walk fromf my house. Well, ben and I just got back from there. We kind of hesitated but stil we went.

Thinking of back to years ago, i felt like we are around that very same table eating Lok lok again and still, I really LOVE chessy taufu...

When we paid, i realise one of my cucuk missing, i guess someone took it accidentally and paid for me liao lo... Untung i😂😂😂

We went to Cindy's house for visit. She got the master bed and i bet the other half is for me😜

I tried to use the oven but it caused short circuit while Rachel bathing half way... I hope i am not the trouble maker here😅

We visit some others house as well and it is like a big big family...

Kinda feel like i am far away... I know probably going to have so much fun with people i m really close to here...

People asked why not staying tgt like last time, i don't really know... More like going with the flow... And I learn to adapt

Sometimes mayb i do feel, even with many people around, what matter is deep in, who around does matter to you.. Or else, you might just feel all alone without those you really care...

I think i am learning to appreciate my friendship more now...

I think this is food i love the most in penang, i think i will come hre often.. 

The epic of the day.. We are happy kids

16/1/27- First day of orientation

We woke up 7am, formal attire on ( too formal i guess). A lot of people already there and i am still so new to the place.

I met Esther at the entrance, even before i entered the area where almost everyone gathered.

She straight entered the room, the lady gave us a file and pointed us to the photo taking area. Surprisingly, I am the first...lol.

We got everything settled real soon.

Then, we got the third row seat in lecture hall in third floor. Seeing some new faces from RCSI. I really do like the feel...

My ex housemates and ex ex roomate all came and sitting right next to me.. Looking more energetic than the day before...she is "ambivert"- lol

Janice gave a brief intro and Prof Richard, head department of med, came in for the first talk.

He talked about the importance to have more practise with the patients is what make us excel. I will bear that in mind.

Then,Prof Premnath, head department of surgery came in for the second talk, with his "aggressive face"-haha, jkjk

He talked without slides. Basically, he didnt really talked bout anything other than a phrase i cannot forget.. Medicine. Is your next life... I suppose... We, have more responsible than just a student now.. I know that...

The third speaker is Prof Krisnan, head department of family med. He seemed to.be a friendly guy... At least i thought so far.

 Jac Ho, Prof of paediatric, told us paediatric is like a combo of noth surgery and med. My sister told me it is one of the easiest posting she felt.. I hope so

Then, followed by talk on public heath, obstetrics and gynaecology and psychiatry. 

Prof Finian told us how important it is to have human element while treating patients.

The public health is nothing but the development of healthcare in Malaysia now.

We got a break and we went out for Penang Asam Laksa!!!!

The talk after was all about stress management.. At least i learn that we always have to aware of what our mind is thinking...

I was so tired back home.. I guess i slept fpr quite some time.

Ben came then, i chatted with her till 11sth.

I read a bit on uptodate med news.. Realise it is really interesting.. I bet i eill keep reading.

*ps- thought of the night- there are some memories that you can hardly erase because it is deeply connected to your emotion...

Nitezzz

Hall full of med students😜

PMC - medicine gonna be my next life!

New home in Penang

Another far away from home experience for me. I have graduated from UCD last month and back home for 2 weeks, enjoying family love that you can never ask for more. My sister did come back once a while during weekend and she is always busy with her medical school ( She is in her final year!)

My brother got his gf tgt with him in INTI. I bet he loves his life now!

My dad drove me up to Cascadia, my new home in Penang. It took 5 hours drive and we arrived at 1pm.

We dropped some stuffs in the house and went to Batu Ferringhi. Road block is everywhere. Our plan to Bendera Hill failed as most possible acess was blocked.

At the moment, I do appreciate time with my family. I still fight with my brother in the car, as usual. I think that is the way we bond😂. Deep in, I know I am gonna miss him so much. 

We passed by Taman Negara, Taman Rama- rama and the " Escape" park. There are some bananas hanging around though. I guess they do make some difference now compare to back 2 years ago.

We went back to Gurney View Inn( hotel my parents stayed). They took warm shower. Then, we made our way to Gurney Plaza and there, surprisingly I met my bestie, Cindy Chai. She looks so much better with her short hair ( that she  kept it secretive from me)!

My dad sent me bck home. I started to unpacked. It didn't take me long. I guess I dont have much stuffs and everything is well arranged. Thanks to Li Jing.

I had a nice chat with her. She offered tp give me ride to PMC as I haven't got my car up here. I got to know more anout her family too. She is really nice. I hope all things go well.

Back to my home alone. I lied on the bed, listen to some song. My mind go astray. Since back from Ireland, I always feel some changes within. I felt there is always a sorrow part of me that always urge to come out. I have worry within me, for now and for future. I am very not use to it as I never really care about lot of things.

Maybe I do start to realise I am alone in a way and I am responsible for my own life.

I take it as part of growing.

I don't know what does it means but I still keep my positivity.=)

2.35am NOW And I still feel the night is young!

My family😊 I ❤️them.

My new home

My room

My life motivation!