Self Reflection

I met up with one of my old friend in secondary school and also my bestie (who I can share stories because they are who you comfortable with)

We talked about our friendship, relationship, travelling experience, work etc.. and of course changes.

I always enjoy this kind of session because this is time when I truly reprocess what had happened, observe my inner changes, aware of my thoughts and feelings, which are something that I always felt hard to express.

Those bad memories are recalled and refresh, remind you to resurface the painful experience, building more protective shield for yourselves, telling you not to repeat the same old mistakes.

Get plan ahead and have certain expectation and targets for everything but not too much, balance is the word you searching for.

Telling us not to judge a book by its cover and truly understand a person before you put assumption.

Not one are generally bad

I personally know that deep in I am a negative person, I always look into myself to know what to improve on. I am not as open and well adaptive and I am improving on that. I am glad that I am aware of the issue so that I can make a change.

Also, not a genuine person who know how to share or ask for help. And I do realise the importance of teamwork...

My winged scapula diary

A month ago, I realised I had developed winged scapula, on my right side. It wasn't really a traumatised news. I been noticed the weakness on my left arms for some time, perhaps 2 months. I first thought of strain, perhaps I been carrying too much weight for the past 2 months. It was beyond my capability and I knew it, my backpacks was pulling me down and into the sands. Probably up to 20 -25kg carrying all the supply needed to survive in the jungle for 3 weeks, with the tops, my hammocks, tins, and food needed for all meal, utensil for cooking, the woks, spades and etc...

Occasionally I had to walk like an old lady, bend to 90 degrees just to carry the backpacks up, coz I felt hard to breath, but this is part of the training. I could ask for help, for sure but my dignity stopped me from doing so. I wanted to prove I am small but I am not weak. I fall multiple times and perhaps that was those one time I injure my nerve and prolly the thoracic nerve that innervate my serratus anterior. I realised weakness everytime I tried to life my arm but didnt notice my scapula was out of shape until I finally get out of the jungle.

Currently doing my physio and praying that it is not muscle tear or severe nerve injury. Not much improvement even it was already a month go. But still I am trying. It was not easy but I need to have faith...

Graduation Day+ 21km run

Today is a crazy day. I woke up early in the morning,430am. Getting myself ready for 21km run started at 530am. My target for this time is 3hrs.

It wasnt a  good day. In the midst of running, it started to rain cats and dogs but I am so grateful that the rain actualy keeps me dehydrated.

This is the kind of sport that need strong mind power. Never a moment I tried to stop coz deep down knowing that when you stop fighting or running, people overtook and is hard to catch up later. Perserverance and determination is for the long run games. So I take it real slow. Despite the heavy rain,  all drenched and further burden with heavy shoes ,I keep it going. Glad to say in the end I finished in 2hour and 45mins for my 21km run. Since is my first 21km so it would be my personal best so far I guess.

I met Song at the finished line, guess both tired as hell. Didn't realise he was just standing right behind me and photobombed me while I tried to take a selfie for the Raleigh  international programme. We had a short nice chat after and I rushed back to hotel right after. I could hardly feel my leg and my appetite was all gone but I managed to grab a cup of coffee before rushing for my rehearsal for grad in Hotel Equatorial half an hour away from my place.

It was done in less than an hour and I had lunch with my best group of friends.

Getting my robe on and make up in less than 15mins, I went for photoshoot session with my family. My dad wasnt as excited but my mum was super!

We had some nice photo taken and right after the ceremony started and followed by teatime. I had great catch up with friends and few of my favourite lecturers. My dad wanted to drive back straight to my hometown that night so we didnt stay long. 

It was hectic but fulfilled day. Medical school life is over but not my medical life and It might prolly just the beginning. Grad doesnt make me feel like a personal achievement. Not that I didnt work hard for it and neither I am not proud or happy. I just feel more grateful for those who stay with me and never let me down=) ❤️

Family- the one who give unconditional love



my best hiking buddy and the valedictorian!

The one who never fail to make me laugh

The one with bunches of philosophy

My twins❤️ The one who know everything about me but never fail to melt me with her kind words

My adventurous and crazy buddies.. too many first time..

It is jusr me

The one who always remind me to work hard💪

The dark secret🤣

The one with speed 💪

The one with too many sides😂

The cool one..

The one who can blow away by wind😂

It's just me




Finally, we grad tgt❤️

Friends of a lifetime

After 5 years of medical school, we finally graduated!
One thing that I value the most is this group of friends who has been there with you through up and down...

Trip back to Intec!

 Our last trip to Sunway Lagoon! Hopeless face =P

YAY! Group photo!

Best Formation! =P

Hope that our path crossed in the future.
My college life would have been different and less colourful without this crazy group of friends

Mother Day

The one who always stay close to my heart <3

Sincerity

Be kind even you been treated badly

Be true to yourself and never doubt the principle you always holding on to

Be in love with yourself because no one does that more than you do

Be so busy that you have no time for nonsense

Be alone and have time for yourself as much as you can

Be wise that even you couldn't doubt yourself

Be happy for small details and little things

Be grateful that ability to breath is all you need....

=)

Never give up until the disc touch the floor- Sport Spirit!!!

The passion that never fade...

Hours of games under the scorching sun made all of us dehydrated, but it is definitely the best game I had after so long

We gathered in the field early at 730am and double up the sunscreen =P

Compare to our juniors and super juniors who are already done warming up and started practising on the field, half of my team was still not here yet~!!!!

The flashback of my frisbee team back in Dublin came out of no where, I remember the Edinburg tournament and the game I had in Cork back in ireland was one of the toughest game and did so many practises for almost every weeks just for the game

and flashback to the time when I first approach Frisbee in my A level year, we never have a proper couch and always struggle with the skills, the strategy, and now it comes all so natural, the best of your muscle memory...

The game was great and always happy to see new blood joining in the game, the team spirit is always what I treasure, perhaps this is what really that keeps me playing, getting to know people through sports are great way, because we all work for that same goal and the feeling was satisfactory...

Never give up until the disc touch the floor, this is the principle of my life, not just to the frisbee disc but to everything we do, we give our best, even we fail, we learn from it and move on~

flashback

there are certain thing in life that you can never get over with...

heart back to place

when the heart finally come back to its place, I want it to stay there.. forever

New me

I am always going with the flow
But this time I want to make sure I have purpose on everything that I am doing...

Pick a flower

Never find this quote so true
You like a flower, you pick it
you love a flower, you water it
Appreciation over possession...

the rhythm that flows

I first fall into a song before a person
I remember my heart skip a beat when I first heard your voice
Then I couldn't remember it now
But that feeling stays
And then I know this is one thing that last
My feeling...

Insecurity

Been almost 2 months apart,
insecurity hits in again, while trying to suppress it deep down, it recurs at night
lot of bad dreams, eat me alive..